Frantic Moments

Everytime I see the sky, I think of my life....
The way I had been, the time I used to be.
I can't say that I am perfect for I'm not.
I do a lot of mistakes, I have sins...
I had a certainly dark past ---
An absolutely nightmare!
This always have been an abberation.
This causes me to break down.
I am afraid to fail for a lot expects from me.
I have a lot of responsibilities which I shoulder.
There are times I can't bear them.

Even though I am active in a lot of scool organizations,
I compete in several accredited competitions ---
Provincial, regional and even national level!
I have seen the beauty of life behind every tears.
As the school publication's head, a founder and leader,
A son, a godfather, an uncle, a nephew, a grandson,
A student, a teacher, a citizen, a friend - everything!
I still look for some moments in my life without pressures.
I still search for probity in which I can't see.

My life has been a boon and a bane!
I played with a lot of girls -- I got flirty!
I still have to find the real me.
I even once flirted with men!
I get dirty with men and women!
I repent.
I look for adventures.
I want to help every single person.
My heart is for everybody, yet,
I can't bear every ounce of pain
I am stuggling all my life...

I love my family and I don't want to see them cry.
I love my friends and I can't bear them suffer.
I love every acquaintance I used to have.
I pray for every people I see.
I am a friend of everybody.

I almost become a seminarian,
My family is facing a lot of troubles.
Financially, emotionally, socially, and personally,
We are all unstable in the family.
Our lot and some proerties are lost.
We can't afford to live without tripling our efforts to live,.
Some relationships in the family are barred with troubles.
Oh, how I wish that all of these could end.

I also have a lot of personal troubles.
I look for myself --- who really am I?
I face a lot of social pressures.
I'm used from discrimination.
With this small forced voice I have due to an operation,
With these looks I can say is quite shameful,
I still have to live and not just to exist!
Being an achiever, I have to be responsible.
I face a lot of problems which are not just for myself.
They're for everyone --- because I loved to!

With all these pressures, I still look forward.
As an Accounting student,
As a leader and editor-in-chief,
As a sinner,
As a son, and a friend...
I always look up to HIM...
Oh God, ease up my life,
I know, You have a lot of plans,
But please, I offer You my burdens.
As long as I see that everything in my life is OK,
I will grab every mission You want from me,
I will handle them with all my heart,
For the people, and for Your glory...